I felt damn lousy today. Ever since Ms Kong flashed the results using the OHP today. I looked at my results at first, then I laughed at myself. Then reality hit me. I was the worst in the class. I am the only person who had gotten Us for the two common tests we have had so far. Including the mid years. Even though the classroom was quite silent, I could laughter ringing in my ears. I felt so ashamed of myself, getting the kind of poor results when I was expected to do so much better. I actually felt that everyone else was laughing at me and my grades. Even when school ended, I could still sense that someone out there, was laughing and probably making a joke out of my results. But I thought back, and I know I deserved this punishment for me being so slack since JC life started. I had about half of the holidays to revise for my mids, but I chose not to. Instead, I played on my computer all day, and read through my notes briefly only. Never once did I look back at the tutorials that I had done, never once did I take a look at the mistakes I had committed in previous workings and change. I cannot blame anyone else except myself. If there is anyone out there who can help and improve my studies, it is and ONLY will be, myself. I have got to get myself back on my feet, and do my secondary school teachers proud, particularly Mrs Thang. She has placed such high hopes on me during the O Levels year, and I accomplished them. I know that somewhere in her is hoping that everyone in 4e6 of 2005, can do well, regardless of whether they are in a JC or a Polytechnic. And I must not fail her. I must NOT.

Although I do not really have a study plan yet, but I am going to follow what Ms Joy Tan has told me to do. I have to do my tutorials and when I am free, I am going to practise on the MCQs in the TYS, and before the promos, read up on the notes and lastly, do the long questions in the TYS. It may not be clear, but it is roughly what I have in mind. I hope the promos this time will turn out better than the mid years.

Bye bye.