i just realised. i am someone who cannot feel for anything, anyone. when people talk to me, i just say "oh", "ok" or "hmm". sometimes nothing comes out of my mouth, instead, i just nod. what's happening to me? is it work? bah, i don't know. i want this sickness to go away, and fast, because i really want to get know the people in my class, and keeping silent won't help.
at least, i hope it's not me.
there are many nice girls in ajc. but they all appear so unapproachable. well, at least for me. i presume i do not have the guts to ask them. guess i do. plus, homework's hell for me, and it keeps piling in and in, non-stop. i want quits. i want to go to a poly and be able to play occasionally. i don't want my life to be so freaking boring like life now. it sucks.
what a stupid decision i made when i applied for the jae. i so regret it now. and everyday i have to face my nagging mother who also cannot seem to stop. boring.
oh something positive. going out on saturday, to buy new clothes and possibly shoes. going to need my atm card. i want to have fun on saturday, i hope nobody spoils it for me or i will personally gut that person out.
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