argh. i realised that i'm always late in doing somethings. like. late in wishing all of you out there a Happy Chinese New Year. that's me, for your information. that's so me. hah.

well, was supposed to visit yismin yesterday evening but my relatives stayed on until abt 11pm, so naturally my parents forbidded me to leave the house. so ysimin, if you are there, and i know you are damn pissed, this is in apology ok? and on behalf of the rest of regulus 8 as well. we are so sorry.

sometimes i wish i could turn back time. do the things i wanted to do since young. like, getting a chance to start trimming down early? then i wouldn't be in this sort of shape now. i'm so Fugly. like, getting a chance to start skateboarding? i can't do that now, since i got no bloody time. like, learning to do stunts with a bmx bike? same circumstances as skateboarding, so why should i bother. haha. these things, yearnings of heart, i just wish i could fulfil them. but it's too late.

now i'm in a dilemma. should i stay on in mjc or what? grr after what my parents told me, i don't know at all. this paranoid feeling has been a long tenant in my head. how i wish i could just switch if off. like "click". just like that. how i wish. i wish.

*wishes don't come true*
no they don't. i don't believe they ever will.